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|Saturday, June 27th, 2009|
|Tuesday, June 26th, 2007|
No one posts in here..
Well, I just wanted to write about my last boyfriend.
He was super duper amazing.
Like full on the perfect guy..
Except he was WAY into being a marine..
And training all the time, and taking a test to become a sniper..
So now that they are sending him away in September..
The perfect guy wanted to get married and I freaked.
Which sounds weird, but I'm 18.. and we were dating like.. 7 weeks.
Marriage!?! Yeah.. wasn't going to happen.
But with him it was all or nothing.
Because he didn't want to leave having to worry about me.
And atleast if something happened to him over there I would have some sort of stability here.
So I couldn't do marriage.. so we broke up.. and now I'm major regretting it.
I still don't think I would have made much of a wife..
but I dunno.. Maybe.
|Monday, May 21st, 2007|
|Monday, May 7th, 2007|
There Weren't Any User Pics.
So I Figured I'd Upload One. Current Mood: creative
|Sunday, May 6th, 2007|
Being An Ex-Girlfriend
So I totally adore my ex boyfriend. But I can't tell anyone. Cause I'm the one who dumped him. For the eighty seventh time in a row. I'm a horrible girlfriend, and he's totally better off, but I miss him. I put the boy through everything for 2 and a half years and he stood there by my side all the times I told him I wanted nothing to do with him and pushed him away. But I think I was scared of letting him in, so I pushed him and pushed him to see if he would leave. Well even when we would break up and I dated other guys, he didn't date other girls. But now the time has finally come and Scott has a girlfriend. I guess I'm not surprised.. I just didn't want it to ever happen. Scott's one of those guys that was like.. MADE for marriage. He's husband material, and he says and does ALL the right things. But I was 16 and then I was 17 and now I'm 18 about to be 19.. I don't want to get married. I love him to death, and I'm happy he's happy.. but I miss him more than anything in the world. And he's fine without me. He deleted me from myspace, all the pictures of me and him together, all the comments, all the blogs.. like he's trying to erase me. And usually we stayed friends.. and so it sucks, I never wanted to miss him, I wish I would have been able to swallow my stupid pride and go back to him, but I couldn't. And now another girl is making him happy. It feels like another girl is kissing MY boyfriend. It feels like another girl is holding hands with MY boyfriend. Another girl is calling MY boyfriend her baby. I hate it. I wish it would stop. I wish I was so stupid and selfish and immature. But no one can know that. I act like I've moved on, talk about a bazillion and three other guys in my journal.. post tons of pictures of me and other guys on myspace.. but Scott was the one I wanted. I was just to stupid to realize it. Current Mood: crazy
|Friday, April 20th, 2007|
Just Turned Ex
I'm a newly ex girlfriend... and it sucks especially since he broke up wit me yet he keeps calling?.?.?... He ignores me for days, told ma bff i'm annoying, breaks up with me and now he wont stop calling me... i'm tryin to live my life but its hard with him making me so confused on a daily basis.... idk wat i'm going to do its been like dis since we started... first 2 months was da best but after that everything has been a rollercoaster... i honestly cant trust him but cant help but love him even thogh i kno he is gonna break my heart yet again... idk i'm just confused and may need a lil help ma friends dont understand so i cant ask them.... Current Mood: depressed
|Thursday, January 18th, 2007|
I'm 20. Just turned an ex-girlfriend. It's been a little over 4 months. We were together for almost 4 years. He was my everything, and it was sad. We met in high school. His best friend is my ex. We started talking in computer class. He was a senior and i was a junior. during the summer of 02' we were inseparable. It was so much fun. We actually had fun but, we weren't together yet. October rolled around and he finally asked me out. It was great the first couple of months.. then he changed. But, I had fallen hard in love with him and i didn't want to leave him, so i ignored every flaw he had, but he didn't ignore mine. so it was hard. last couple of months we were together.. it was awkward. He had changed alot.. and i really didn't like it. he even changed the way he looked. We didn't have anything in common anymore.. and i wasn't sure if i still loved him. We hardly talked, we hardly saw each other and it went all down hill from there. We fought for every little thing, we would brake up for every little thing too. One day we were on the phone arguing like always.. after he said "call me when you know what you want." my phone had lost the signal. I don't know if he hung up after that, all i know is that neither of us called back. and he always called back. but not this time. In a way i thought we were going to get back together like all the break ups we had. but this time it was different. I didn't want to go back to the routine. And now...I'M GLAD I'M AN EX!! Current Mood: relieved
|Monday, January 8th, 2007|
ok so my name is Andie and i just got in a really bad break up on NEW YEARS! can you believe it...he kissed me when the ball dropped and then he dumped me for my friend that was with me and all night i had to watch them make out!!!!!!!!! talk about disgusting! Im sooo mad I could kill them both! but yea LOL sry kinda bipolar....yea umm but if any of you wanna comment my page feel free
|Friday, October 27th, 2006|
My name is Tanya. I recently joined the community. Here's something that's not quite standard. :)
I have a story that's going to unravel soon, but check my journal:http://tanyastory.livejournal.com
There's a question that i would like people to answer.
And yes, I know this is the ex-girlfriends community, and in a way, it kind of fits, if you can figure it out from the story. ;)
|Sunday, October 1st, 2006|
Hi, i'm neya. I'm 18 an been an x-girlfriend for over a year and a half, i still havent found anybody new to be with
|Monday, September 18th, 2006|
IM AN EX GIRLFRIEND of actually awhile now, i had a boyfriend who i met right after i got out of a previous 2 year relationship and he was amazing we met spring break senior year in high school, meanwhile we are now juniors in college but we dated for 2 years and he was perfect, of corse but he behind it all like most boys are fuckinw ithyou and strining you along for therir own enjoyment! u know when things start getting rocky for whatver reasons its hard u bicker whatver butu work though and hope for the best specailly if its stupid, u never thing ok this lil shit isne tgunnaa be why we would break up! well we bickered it was hard he was away at school tons of things, well my space told all and for real he was cheeting on me for um 4 months ( like in love "goingout with" )and when i asked whyand how he could be so selfish he sauid because he was ready to move on but he wasnt ready for me to move on! we broke up on valentines day and i have been ok obv it was a hard thing and i still talk to the prick once in awile seeing how we all have the same friends but hey
|Sunday, June 18th, 2006|
I am exgirlfriend for a week and two days...
I met my ex-boyfriend more than a year ago on the Net. I started to play one online game and he helped me. As time went, we talked not only about game, but also about our real lives. He was 18 and he had just finished the hight school. I am 3 and half year younger and I have just started to attend one. I was sure I have some feelings for him, but I felt like he is too old for me. But after few month, when we knew each other really well, I didn´t worry. The bigger problem was distance. He lives over 300km from my town. But then it didn´t mater – in January he told me he had loved me. And I loved him, too. We first met on 23th February in his town. It has been the best time of my life.
But some time ago it started to be difficult. He has exams right now and doesn´t have much time to be on Net. I missed him and he was too tired and worried to be nice to me. Once, week and two days ago, we went into the fight because I felt unwanted and let him know he doesn´t pay much attention to me.
In the end he decided it was time to end it – he love sme, but he knows he hurts me. Maybe in some time... but not now. We stay friends.
Since then I feel like in the hell. I cry everyday. I can´t pay attention to anything and... I just want him... I love him so much!
Mum told me that man who gave me up so easily is not worth it and it helped a little... But I still feel bad.
What should I do?
crosspested to broken_heart
|Wednesday, October 12th, 2005|
Yep...another ex-girlfriend here. My ex broke up with me about 5 months ago on June 1, three days after our 2 year anniversery. He was my first everything. First boyfriend, first...well, like I said, first everything. I had been in love with him for about a year and a half before we actually got together. At first, he was just one of my best friends, and one of the most genuine people I knew at the time (being in high school at that time, finding someone that genuine was a very rare occurance). After a while, it got to a point where I looked foward to seeing him every day, and I realized I was really starting to have feelings for him. Long story short, due to various circumstances beyond my control (he had a girlfriend, and he went to college far away), we didn't wind up getting together until summer before my freshman year of college. So we dated, and we were...well, we were good together. At least it felt that way at the time. It's very strange, looking back on it I didn't really like who I was when we were together. I was jealous, obsessive, and kind of a shut-in. Neither of us were really making any friends, we just kinda had each other. It was something we both vaguely knew at the time, but didn't do anything about. Then this past summer, after I yelled at him for basically ignoring all my needs, he broke up with me. He cited a bunch of reasons at the time, none of which I really thought were good enough. We didn't have enough in common (which had always been the case and hadn't been a problem up to that point, so it was kind of a stupid thing to bring up), we moved too fast in the beginning, and all I could do was sit, cry, and beg him to make this not be happening. Actually, I didn't really wind up crying so much as howling. I hurt so much when he broke up with me, it was almost like a physical pain. The next day, everything seemed so dark...I felt like one of those cartoons where the character has a raincloud over their head that follows them around all day. If my mom hadn't stayed home to take care of me, I don't know what I would've done.
So I was sad for a good while, then I got angry. Angry at being cast aside, angry because I felt like he had never really needed me, angry because I felt like he was giving up on us because all the sudden I was too much trouble for him. I let him know that, and that's when he fully explained himself. He said he felt like he hadn't changed since high school, that he was a shut-in who wasn't making any friends, and that he needed to change, and he couldn't do that while having a girlfriend. And knowing all that helped, I knew that I needed to change some things in myself as well, and it gave me some sense of closure. Now I'm back at school, making friends, and, as hard as this would've been to believe a few months ago, I'm blossuming. I'm stronger now, and I know what kind of things to watch out in myself the next time I get in a relationship. And I don't love him anymore...he's changed a lot (either that or my view of him has changed) and he isn't the man I fell in love with. That man is now dead, and replaced by this...I'm not even sure what he is now, but he's barely someone I like. There are still a lot of things I'm working out though...I still have this little voice creeping into my head every so often saying "it's all your fault this didn't work", which I'm trying to ignore for the most part, but it's hard sometimes. And there's still a large part of me that is very afraid to give my heart to somebody else ever again. I read somewhere that "Love is giving someone the power to destroy you and trusting them not to". I gave my ex that power, and he broke that trust. I can't trust that the next guy won't do the same thing. I just...I don't want to be vulnerable anymore.
Wow...that's a lot of typing. Sorry if y'all get bored reading that.
|Wednesday, September 28th, 2005|
Unfortunately, I am also an ex-girlfriend. I was dating this guy for a long time, Adam, and eventually he ended up living with me when I was still at my parents house. Well, he was very lazy after that. So, I dumped him. We were long over when I got romantically interested in his friend, Robert. That's when Adam told me I was never allowed to talk to his friends or family ever again or he would come after me. Keep in mind that I am very close to his friends and family. They are wonderful people. I didn't want to break up with Adam in the first place, but it seemed like the right thing to do. I ended up being with an engaged man a few times. I know I know...but it get's worse. The fiance was pregnant. It was the best kept secret of my life, but also the worst. He told me if it wasn't for the fiance, he would be with me forever. He told me he loved me and led me on for the longest time. I was so upset the day of the wedding. I know it was very wrong of me. To make matters worse, Adam ended up with my best friend at the time, and getting her pregnant. She now hates me because she thinks I'm jealous. I'm not, but that's the type of person she is. Adam egged my car after that also. Needless to say, I am very hurt.
|Friday, July 15th, 2005|
i'm new. . . . .
well like me and my first b/f as i should say first lover went out n broke up after a year. i went out with his ex best friend, bc they hated each other then, like a few days later. i went out with him for like a wekk then went back to my first. i stayed with him for about a couple months and went back to his ex bestfriend. then i went back to him for about 6 months. then i went to his ex friend again. so i went with both of them off and on for about two years three times each. i thought i was in love with my first b/f but it really wasnt all that great. b/c he would be mad at me all the time for talkin to certain guys. so i dont really know weither or not it was my fault for going back to him everytime. but i did it b/c i thought i was in love and he was the guy for me even though he was my first. well after the third time with his ex bestfriend i started dating this other guy when my first was still trying to get with me i thought this could break the cicle but the only problem is that my first b/f was also friends with this guy. but i only stayed with this guy for like 2 months. but now i am back with my first ex best firned and everything is going good. i actually want to be in the relationship not like the other three times. but sometimes i still think about my first. i talk to him a lil still, but i am scared i still have feelings for him since i thought me n him were in love. but then again i dont want to go back to him like the other times and i dont think it should happen anyways. but i jsut dont know why i still think about him when our relationship wasnt that great. and since me n him broke up so many times it may should tell me to completly forget about him since he wasnt right for me. but yea yall can comment on this if yall wanna. . . . Current Mood: curious
|Sunday, May 22nd, 2005|
So that ex boyfriend of mine. I've been thinking about writing him a poem and asking him out on a date. I really want to be with him. It's almost summer and we will have more time together. Who knows maybe when we get together and are forced to talk we will realize something, whether its that we should be together or whether that I should stop trying to persue something more.
|Thursday, April 7th, 2005|
I just became an ex-girlfriend over a month ago. The guy I had dated was so sweet and charming when we were going out and it didn't seem to bother him that we could only see one another on weekends. He was also the first guy that wasn't intimidated by the fact that I was in college (even though I'm still just 16). Well one evening I had him over for a movie (the Notebook) and dinner, and after it's over he seems really bothered. He would hardly talk to me and he kept repeating to himself "Not now" He even told me to tell him "that it can wait". Then after we danced a little while and kissed he just sat down and burried his face in his hands. That's when he broke up with me. I'll never forget it. He told me that he didn't love me (even though he had told me so before) and that he believed I cared for him more than he cared for me. He gave me a highschool statistic about too. It hurt very bad and I honestly think it was the first time my heart actually broke that much. I was getting over him and then he (or actually his co worker/friend) started calling me on the weekends (which is when he works) and leaving messages and hanging up. One day his friend left a message on my phone (my dad told me to stop answering them if I didn't want to talk to him) and cussed me out. Since then I've only had one or two unknown numbers call my phone and not leave a message, so I'm finally getting over it. The only thing is that I'm now scared to see him. I had called him after two of those weekend calls and told him how upset I was and at the end of the conversation he told me to have a nice life and then hung up on me. Well about a week later I got in a car wreck, I wasn't hurt, but I planned on not telling him. Well his mom found out and now he's telling my friends (who are homeschooled like I was) that he didn't mean to tell me to have a nice life and all that and the only reason he said that was because he was in the heat of the moment. The reason I'm scared of him I think is because I don't know who he really is. I thought I did, but he had lied to me on more than one occasion and then he allowed his friend to call me on HIS (my ex-boyfriends) cellphone and now he wants to be my friend. GRRRR!!
Ok, for a little bit happier story. I met, what I now call the man of my dreams (A), when I was 14. We were both volunteering at the same library and met one day while I was working on a little kids task (which was glueing popsicle sticks to bright pink paper). He came rushing around the corner to the back room looked in the basket saw me and then said his first words to me "You stole my task". Well I had been working on this "task" for almost 2 hours so I just snapped back at him and said "Well, if you had been here 2 hours earlier, you could have glady been doing this". Well that started a conversation which ended up in us introducing ourselves. I thought he was a weirdo when I first met him, but as the weeks progressed and we caught a glance of one another every now and then I found myself changing my schedule to work with him. The library was putting on a murder mystery in about 2 weeks so I asked the youth coordinator (who is also a good adult friend of mine) if she needed any help. It turned out that there were a couple of people who hadn't been showing up for parts and she offered them to me. I gladly accepted because I loved acting. She gave me a script to look over and thanked me generously for it and as she walked on to the meeting room who would be following behind her with some costumes but that boy (lets call him A). Well my heart kind of did a flip because I still didn't know what to think of him completely. I did end up working on the play and A and I got know one another very well. Once you got us started talking we couldn't stop. He had a way of making me laugh and smile without trying. One day while I was getting ready to leave, he even got down on his knees in the library entrance and begged me not to leave. Well the night before the murder mystery came around and I decided to watch Moulin Rouge (which is not a good idea when you're trying to make a decision about some one). After the movie was over I immediately wrote him an e-mail telling him how I felt about him. He wrote me back that night and told me not to worry and for me to meet him at the library to talk the next day before the murder mystery. Well I already knew he was moving and that would complicate things and make it hard to be anything to one another, but that wasn't what I was worried about. All I wanted to hear him say was how he felt about me. That day he told me, he liked me in the same way, but reminded me that he was moving very soon and that it might not work out between us. I said I didn't care and that I was just happy he liked me too. So for the next week or so we were very happy. We called one another to talk and e-mailed back and forth constantly. Then about 2 or 3 nights before he moved he sent me 2 e-mails. The first one said "You Know What?" and the second said "I Love You". Even though he moved and we broke up about a month later because of distance I will never forget how I felt for him. We went two years without seeing one another, and occasionally called one another. At one point we both said we still had feelings for one another, but agreed again that the distance put a big hender on it. This past summer we actually saw one another face to face and my body was just sent into a whirl of emotion. My knees turned into jello, my stomach fluttered, and my heart was beating so hard I just knew he could see it. Everything was like a movie that day. From the time the bells on the tower started ringing when we saw one another that day to the whole driving away and seeing him pause a minute before walking away. Some days I miss him terribly and wish I could know what it would be like to date him now, but he doesn't know. The only way we talk now and days are through IM and LJ. We're definitely not as close as we were when we met, but I still consider him a great friend. There are two things that I wish could have happened before he moved away 2 years ago and that is 1) We had slow danced together like we planned and 2)That we had kissed one another in that one moment when it seemed right. This may sound weird, but before I die I hope to fufill those 2 things.
Ok I'm done now I promise. This is a cool community btw!
|Saturday, March 12th, 2005|
so i just joined cause i think i get what this community is about but before i sound like a retard cause i'm wronge i want to make sure i'm right. what's it about now?
|Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005|
I am new here and just thought I should explain what all happened. I met R in 2002 during the summer and we became friends I admit I had a crush on him as soon as I saw him. During the fall we lost touch but on new years day 2003 we began to talk again. We started hanging out and doing things with friends and during the Spring when we were at a park he fell for me (he told me this later on) on July 4th 2003 he asked me out and of course I said yes. We went out for a month but it was summer and I was going to be away for most of it so I broke it off because I didn't want a boyfriend while I was going to be away constantly. We didn't talk for a while but then once school started again we did. He asked me to a formal but I said no because I just wanted to go with friends. While at the formal R danced with another girl the whole time and I got jealous so the next day I called him and told him that I wanted to be with him. We went to a local college soccer game and talked and he said that he told the girl that he danced with the whole time and he wanted to be with me. So we were together and made it official on Halloween. We had a great time together and everything was so easy with him I was very comfortable around him. I knew by New Years Eve that I was in love with him. We were together whenever we could be and things were amazing he was the best. I was sad one day so he brought me flowers, whenever I needed a shoulder he was there no matter what time of day. In August 2004 we both got really busy and agreed that we didn't have enough time for each other. We talked on the phone still and 1 week later we realized that we had a horrible time apart and that we needed to be together. In October 2004 he broke up with me though. This was very tough for me seeing as I was still in love with him. I went to his house to get some things I had left there and there was a girl who is 3 years older than him (and she has a kid too) in his living room. She has liked him for a while and I found out recently that they are going out. I still love him though. He is the only one that still can make me happy just by talking to me and he is the only one I want to go to when I have a problem because he always makes it better... So thats my story... Current Mood: lonely
|Thursday, February 3rd, 2005|
Since my last post my person and I got back together . . . and ended it again. I miss him but I can't tell him. Current Mood: cheerful